Change the World

I want to

DO

so much.

I want to change the world.

And I think we can do it

I have so many things

I want to change.

So many things I want to accomplish:

make the world a better place

have it legal for me to marry whomever I fall for

increase world literacy

decrease world suck

create some amazing light designs.

Is that so hard to ask?

But I can’t

not without help,

not without friends

not without fixing myself.

I will be of no use to anyone

if I can’t fix my brain.

If I can’t re-tune the receiver

re-wire the hardware

and fix me.

no more sudden mood shifts

no more falling off the narrow ledge

no more despair so heavy I can’t function

no more being a burden

no more teasing words

no more changeability

maybe.

But

what

do

I

do,

if

I

fail?