Ghost Touches

I can still feel the pressure of your hand

holding,

caressing,

teasing…

The places your lips fell burn on in

my memory,

my skin,

my thoughts…

I can still smell your oh-so-unique scent on

my pillow,

my clothes,

my skin…

The ghosts of your touch, your lips, your scent

haunt me as I go through my day

twine into my dreams

and shield me from darks

I can still feel my

fingers running through silky hair

teeth grazing your sensitive neck

and legs straddling of your hips

The power we have over each other

chases me through the day

now if only we had the power

to make it to the opportune moment

Imagine

Close your eyes.

Imagine

the perfect body.

Everything you could ever want in another:

same height, same weight, and all her curves

in all the right places.

Two perfect little handfuls,

tug-able hair and hips I just want to pull close.

I can see my fingers running through her hair,

tracing her lips

to neck

to color bone

to cleavage

to ribs

to hips

to thighs

to knees

to calves

to two cute feet.

I can see the kisses trail I make

back up the way I just came down

(except to course some brief side trips to

secret ‘hot’ spots and trigger points).

I worship this body, love it and

learn it’s sacred bits.

But when I go to kiss her,

all I feel is

you.

Your heart pumping,

body shaking,

panty wetting,

breath taking,

kiss.

confusion

fear

annoyance

fatigue

avoidance

resignation

and so many thoughts

coursing through me

tangling in upon one another

over and over and over and over

what to do?

what to do?

what to do?

Head, Heart or Gut?

I do not know if

My mind

My heart

Or my gut

Is telling me

Warning me

Whispering

That this is a bad idea

If it’s my head...

Then I may be

over-thinking

worrying too much

and ignoring my heart

If it’s my heart...

Then I may be

scared of being hurt again

wary of trusting my heart to another

and unsure of if this is worth the hurt

But if its my gut

then I’m screwed

this is doomed

and I should stop it now

But how in the world

am I supposed to know the

difference!?